她有男朋友了 ！。。。。。。。。。。。

她对我说她还爱着她的前男友， 不想再走进一段新恋情。。。 我说不想作代替瓶， 不过我也原意给她时间去忘掉过去。。。。。。

我好累， 此刻的心情就像遇是到了人生的瓶颈。 一个人当陷入人生的低潮，就是遇到朋友，金钱与爱情的问题。 此刻的我三样都有。

有人说当一个人在为一段失败的爱情疗伤时，不宜对她表白。 我想这是正确的。。。。 或许当初她问我是否喜欢她时，不说实话，事情就不会演变成现在的局面了。。。。

如果你眼神能够为我 片刻的降临
如果你能听到 心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你 沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己 像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多开心
最角落里的我 笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我 永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我 最压抑 最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我 看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们 暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望 装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱 永远是配角戏
多希望能与你 有一秒 专属的剧情


此刻的心情以这首杨宗纬的<<洋葱>>来代表我的心情是最好不过了。。。

爱人比被爱难，要放弃不是放弃就能做到。我知道三年的感情不比一个月深，或我们认识的太晚了。认识是一种缘分。我不想看到你为了一段过失败的爱情而应此对它失去信心。等待是痛苦的，等了又代表了什么？是你的，终究会回到你生旁。我不是要你立刻忘掉，我也不想做代替瓶。我想我会等待，等待，直到一个值得我爱的人在出现。

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was SMSing her this message while removing my ring that i had brought while in genting alone to remind me of my failed relationship. The ring jsut drop onto the floor and broken into pieces. Guess this is hint to move on with life...

21st, the year where u enter adulthood and where eveything changes. You are no longer kids, your thinking mature and no longer able to act like a kids...Haiz, i miss my childhood

Went to Ryan's 21st birthday celebration at chervons. It was a enjoyable evening.Thanks for inviting me. Hoped you like the shoe and socks we brought for you.Congrats to Eric for wining all the bingo money..Was thinking what am i doing when i turned 21st..I celebrated by lighting up my lighter and cigarette and singing to myself birthday song. I started my bithday celebation at the age of 16. From the age of 16-20, is was held at different chalets. That was the times where i am still attached, thus there was someone with me. After breaking off, well is pretty bo biao to celebtate again..

It has been a long time since i blog about my tots. lol.Feeling moody for the past few weeks, i reckon that i am going to have a emotion breakdown soon.

Attended my cousin's wedding dinner 2 weeks ago, well he tied the knots at the age of 28. Seems like this is a best age to get marriage.He is working as a property agent now, the market is booming now and both he and his wife are earning big bucks man, nearly 10k per month. Furthermore,he opened a shop too. 1 of my cousin's got marriage at the age of 28 too six years back and ya he is working as a part-time agent too.. I am still considering if i should join too, but who knows, 9 more months to ORD, the market might not as good later.

I am stress up by my "brother" and his mum.. Just feels like ignoring them and pretend nothing had happen, but i could not do so. He attempted sudcide and was arrested by the police for using criminal forces on them. Spent few days looking after him and his mum, as his mother are mentally unstable now. Haiz.... And what did i get return, i ended up nearly AWOLing......